Just the life of any other Rachel

Thursday, June 8, 2017

I keep meaning to post more often, then I don't.  Then I forget what I was going to say.

Today was the last day of Joy School and the last swimming lesson.  I'm a little sad for them both to end, but it's also nice not to have weekly obligations.  He did pretty well towards the end of Joy School, but it took a while to get there.  I'd love to have him do preschool in the fall.  I think it would be good for him, and it would give me a little more one on one time with baby.  But the cheapest I've been able to find is about $200 a month (for 2 days a week).  And I'm not sure we could easily afford it. We aren't low income enough for funding, but we can't afford it on our own either.  I guess we'll see what happens.  Aaron has applied for a couple of new positions, and his yearly raise is coming up.  But I doubt preschool is in the cards.
Swimming was fun though.  He's getting a lot more comfortable in the water.  And he really enjoys it.  Hopefully I'll be able to take him a few more times before baby comes.  Next year he'll be big enough to take lessons on his own, and I'll take mommy/baby lessons with baby girl.

I'm in my 33rd week of pregnancy.  It seems like I'm quickly running out of time.  And yet, I still can't imagine the next step: having a daughter, being a mom to two.  Is that weird?  I'm sure I'll be attached when she's born, but... I'm not sure how to explain it.  She feels foreign, even though she's here.  Anyway, thus far everything is still looking good.  I had my 32 week with an MD (as opposed to a nurse midwife, which I usually see).  I talked to her about a VBAC.  She said the odds (according to some algorithm) are only 46% in my favour, for a successful VBAC.  I've been going back and forth about whether to try the VBAC or schedule a c-section straight away.  My objection to trying was pain of labouring, and being super tired and then need a c-section anyway.  Or worse, needing an emergency c-section like last time, and missing the whole thing.  Plus I'd love to have the golden hour.  I think, in the end, if I didn't at least try a VBAC I would always wonder if it could have happened.  But we'll see what the 36 week appointment looks like.  If she's breech, for example, I'll schedule the c-section.  So really, it's up in the air, but I'm going to try a VBAC if possible.
I've been feeling crummy off and on.  My anxiety has been very high.  I had an anxiety attack at church a couple weeks ago, for no reason.  (The same thing happened when I was pregnant with Bertie).  I've been really tired, and my hips and back hurt off and on.  And I've been having really bad indigestion.  So bad that something like room temperature water would both me.  My mom ordered me a couple cases of Boost with extra protein, so I have something somewhat healthy on those bad days (instead of nothing, or toast).  My birthday was really bad, I had the indigestion, and nausea and sweats; it was like the first trimester all over again.  I had to take a promethizine, then I was able to eat and drink normally.  The day after that I ate everything,  It was the first time in a while I'd actually felt hungry, so I ate.  Then today I was up 5 lbs.  How is that even possible?  I don't have any other preclampsia symptoms, so it's not likely that.  I'm hoping it's water weight.  I've been eating more normally today.

How far along? 33 weeks 3 days
Total weight loss/gain: About 16 lbs, before the mysterious weight gain.
Maternity clothes? All.  With the exception of mens basketball shorts, and a couple pairs of leggings.
Sleep: Not too many issues sleeping.  I wake up a lot to pee (every 2 hours), but I can usually go back to sleep.

Best moment this week: Getting the nursery in order.
Movement: Mostly evening, but also afternoons.
Food cravings: Turkey and cheese sandwich from Togos, or salad with blue cheese dressing. So, stuff I can't eat.
Food aversions: Garlic, onions, and sometimes raw veg
Gender: Girl,
Labor Signs: None, thank goodness, not even braxton hicks.

Belly Button in or out? In, it's not going anywhere
What I miss: Moving freely
What I am looking forward to:  Less back pain
Milestones: Another viability milestone is a couple weeks away.