Just the life of any other Rachel

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Year End Survey

1. What did you do in 2017 that you'd never done before?
Had a baby without drugs, was unemployed/full-time SAHM

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I made one.  I don't really plan on making any
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
People at church

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No

5. What countries did you visit?
none, still.

6. What would you like to have in 2018 that you lacked in 2017?
Be more active. More outside time with the kids.

7. What days from 2017 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The day Bronwyn was born

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Bertram has started reading (though it's really more his achievement than mine)


9. What was your biggest failure?
Not leaving for the hospital in time to get an epidural

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Recovery from birth was awful

11. What was the best thing you bought?
 Double stroller

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Bertram.  I thought he would have a hard time not being an only child, but he's been great.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Anything to do with Trump

14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Having a baby girl

16. What song will always remind you of 2017?
Sign of the Times (though, maybe that came out last year?)

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier, 
ii. thinner or fatter? Probably a little thinner
iii. richer or poorer? richer, I think

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Exercised while pregnant

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

laundry (because I hate laundry)

20. How will you spend Christmas?
We're going to open our stockings tomorrow (Christmas eve).  Christmas day we'll have dinner with Aaron's extended family

22. Did you fall in love in 2017?
With Bronwyn

23. How many one-night stands?
none, duh.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Rick and Morty

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No, I try not to waste time on hate.

26. What was the best book you read?
I only read a couple of books this year.  But I liked The Drug Hunters a lot

27. What was your greatest musical (re)discovery?
More of the same stuff., Nothing spectacular is springing to mind

28. What did you want and get?
A drug free birth


29. What did you want and not get?
A pleasant drug free birth

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
That implies that I saw movies...

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I have no clue what we did... I turned 34

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?Having no depression and anxiety

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2017?
Maternity clothes

34. What kept you sane?
Anti-depressants

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
...I can't think of anyone.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Pretty much all of them.  It was a terrible year, politically speaking

37. Who did you miss?
My mom and seester

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I don't meet a lot of new people

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2017:
Leave for the hospital earlier than you think is necessary

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
??

Friday, December 15, 2017

This and That

We got our Christmas tree up, and Aaron put lights on the house (which we haven't done in a while).  There are a lot of gifts under the tree.  All the stockings are full, except Bronwyn.  What do you put in a stocking for a 5 month old?  So far she has socks in it.  I may get her another chewy toy.  We aren't doing Santa.  So that's why the stockings are full.  Bertram asks every morning if it's time to open presents.  Yesterday, he said "We need to buy a present to send to Nana, for the baby".  I told him the baby is with us, and Nana has toys.  He said "No, the other baby!"  He was talking about his (step) cousin, Lawson.  That was really cute, and sweet.  I'm pretty excited to see him open his gifts.  And he wants to help Bronwyn open hers too.

Christmas is a hard time for me.  It's a bit better this year, than in years past.  It's an odd feeling.  And I'd guess non-depressed people don't understand.  I'll go out to buy gifts, or whatever.  And I'll be really excited.  Then all of a sudden, it just hits.  I don't even know how to describe it. 

Aaron and I went to a parenting class for disciplining the willful child.  It was really informative, and helpful.  Also, I've started to get up when Aaron does, make the bed, get dressed.  Otherwise, we stay in our jammies too long and watch too much tv.  His screen time has been increasing exponentially lately.  I've cut him back to an hour (30 on the table, 30 on tv or youTube).  He's been finding ways to stay busy.  He plays with play doh for an hour at a time (or more), blocks, other art projects.  He loves playing in flour.  What I need to work on is more outside time.  I need to clean up the back yard (hopefully tomorrow).  Pick up the dog poop, pull the weeds, more room to play.  Or walk to the park more.  (Our jogging stroller has a flat tire, I need to order a new intertube). 

The kids have been amazing lately.  I feel so lucky everyday to be their mommy, and to be able to stay home with them.  I'm grateful that Aaron works hard at a job that isn't his dream, so that we have amazing insurance and I can be home.  I talked to Bertram about preschool, and he said he didn't want to go to school, he wanted to stay with me. (Preschool may not be an option.  The cheapest preschool around here is about $300 a month, for 2 half-days a week.  There is a free preschool through our school district (which I'm looking into), but my guess is that we make too much money to qualify, even though, around here we are definitely in the the low to middle income bracket). 

Bertram is still amazing with Bronwyn.  He is a great helper, when I need him to get something for me. He is generally happy, he's really creative.  He knows way too much about the solar system and geography.  He loves maps.  He has finally started drawing something other than "marble mazes" (aka scribbles), he's drawing maps.  He talks about traveling to different places. We've started reading some.  He has a lot of sight words.  He's not too interested in phonics yet. He loves helping in the kitchen, he always wants to bake.  He is affectionate with the whole family.  And he is a funny kid.  We were at Safeway yesterday, and we wanted to get something to drink (lemonade for him, diet coke for me).  We were waiting for the guy and the counter, he came over, and Bertram pointed to the cups and said "We'd like two drinks please". 

Bronwyn is almost 5 months old.  She is generally a happy kid.  She wakes up from a nap, I go in and talk to her, and she'll pop her head up and just smile.  She is the cutest thing.  She is a big drooler.  I keep thinking she is teething, but nothing yet.  She's chewing on everything.  She's started playing with toys, she loves rings, and taggie toys.  She likes playing on her tummy, and grabbing daddy's beard.  She wants to crawl, but she's not coordinated enough.  She loves baths.  Bron is a major thumb sucker.  She is still a good nurser.  (I'm still wheat free for her).  She has a dimple (almost two)

I just feel so lucky to have great kids, and to be their mom.