Day 135

We moved into the next phase of reopening for a whopping 2 days before everything closed again.  Not sure why the powers that be thought reopening as the numbers rose would be a good idea.  So things are continuing in the same direction.  Numbers keep going up.

School is going to be completely online through (at least) 2 August.  They are expected to be available/on the computer (?) from 8-2.  I was hoping it would be a little more open form like the end of last year.  I'm not sure how it will go, I guess it's supposed to be a mix of online class, individual teacher time, and possibly small groups (online).  (Though there has been some talk about doing small pods in addition to this, but we'll see how it all shakes out).  So, due to this new schedule we needed to change Bertram's time and day for speech.  And his time for ABA will change, and he will likely have to get a new tech, which sucks.  But to keep the same one we'd have to do 5:30-8:30, which is too late (as bedtime is 8).  But maybe the school schedule won't be so rigid, but it's all in flux.  We don't have his class assignment yet, and thus haven't heard from the teacher about her plan.  It's all stressing me out.  And I know this is going to be difficult for Bertram too. 

I stopped taking Remeron. It wasn't helping, and it made me hungry all the time.  I will be trying BuSpar. We'll see how that goes.  I kind of feel like I want to switch the Wellbutrin+Zoloft combo, but the shrink seems to be hesitant to do that.  I feel like I'm in a bad head space.  Like having a base level of anxiety all the time.  Plus, I feel like I'm failing at everything.  And I'm just on edge all the time. 

We adopted two kittens that we abandoned, and malnourished.  (Aaron's cousin's neighbour found them under her deck).  Originally I just wanted the girl, since we've had issues with boy cats spraying.  But they were bonded, so we took them both.  They were born at the beginning of June, so they're about 8 weeks old.  Bertram named the boy Shy-Guy (which is a character in Mario), and Aaron and I named the girl Oona.

Oona

Shy-Guy

They're been confined to our bedroom and bathroom.  They are super friendly and very playful.

Our washer died today, which a barrel full of water and wet clothes.  It was 14 years old. Fortunately, we're in a position that replacing it wasn't a huge burden.  Really more of an annoyance than anything.  But we got a nice LG washer.

We've (Aaron, Bertram and I) have been learning to play pokemon cards.  It's pretty fun.  Bertram keeps trying to cheat, which is weird because he doesn't actually care about winning.

Bronwyn's birthday was a couple weeks ago.  My baby is 3.  We didn't do much for her in terms of a party.  I made a cake, and we gathered on grandma and grandpa's lawn. 

Day 117

The day counting may be coming to an end...?  The county technically reopens, mostly, on Monday.  Most all businesses, except things like amusement parks, night clubs, indoor playgrounds, theatres, etc.We can gather inside with up to 20 people, though, we're still supposed to socially distance.  Any shared public/business spaces require masks; statewide. I'm not sure I really I feel too comfortable gathering, so we'll play it by ear.

School is going to be another thing to play by ear. As of now, the various teachers union have refused to teach in person until conditions are safe. I am all for this.  Our school distract/county put no limit on class sizes (eg: they would still have 28-30 kids) in an enclosed space, without any distancing.  I was already considering doing online learning for Bertram anyway (as much as it pains me), but I'd rather he (and rest of the family) be safe.  As of now, school will be 100% online.  I'm looking into purchasing homeschool curriculum, to supplement whatever is going on.  Bertie said, given the choice, he'd rather have school at home.  So we're still in flux.

It's good I suppose, as I wasn't feeling very comfortable having him return as things are.  I'm not thrilled about homeschooling.  But, we're getting more into a groove with it.  And I can always have him do it during ABA.  

Aside from all that, things have been continuing as normal.  Lots of Switch, too much screen time.  We haven't been eating out as much.  I have gained a lot of weight in these last 117 days (around 20lbs).  So I've been counting calories (starting 3 or 4 days ago), because I just eat, and eat, because I like eating.  I need to exercise a bit more (aside from walking), but I really have no energy, and the kids sleeping has been hit or miss.

There have been so many junebugs this summer.  I hate it!

Successful cream biscuits

Clean baby

They both love to read

Cat face.

4th of July

I die.

We escaped to Saucalito on day.  

Bron made a little family

I cut her bangs.  I didn't do a great job.

Bertram is excited about his new backpack.  Maybe he'll get to use it one day...