Misc

During my vacation, my sister and I watched Food Inc.  She'd never seen it, I saw it about 3 years ago.  I decided I want to do more, in terms of food.  I already buy organic free range eggs.  They cost $4.50 a dozen, so about 3 times as much as regular eggs.  I've started buying organic milk.  This one is harder, as we go through way more milk than eggs.  Regular milk is usually between 2.99 and 3.30; organic is 6 to 6.50. I have no clue if organic milk cows are treated better than regular. But I'd like to think so.

I don't buy any "land animal" meat.  I do buy fish occasionally.  But I do buy some tv dinners with meat for Aaron's lunches.  I could cut back, or just buy veggie meals, he wouldn't mind.

He plays with the idea of vegetarian-ism from time to time.  I would like to get back there, but I can't do it til my guts are more under control.

My vacation was good.  I wish I could see my mom and sister more.

Things have been tough lately.  Conference weekend is supposed to be uplifting, and comforting.  It was the exact opposite.  There were too many talks about kids who died.  And Elder Oaks, who I normally love, gave a talk that crushed me.  I was sobbing before it was over.  Not good sobbing, sobbing because my heart was breaking.  I can't even remember what was said, but it was about kids, it was frustrating, and crushing.  I do remember he said a child is best when in the home with it's biological parents.  And I thought oh great, another strike for us.

I don't really know what to do.  I feel like being in the church is making things harder.  My faith is failing me.  Or I'm failing it.

Aaron's having a hard time too.  He's not as vocal about it as I am.  But I just feel broken.