Today was a crappy day.  Basically it went like this:
Aaron found out he didn't get a job we were both really hoping for, I found out my grandpa is probably dying, Aaron has a sinus infection and is still contagious, my co-worker's dad was just diagnosed with ALS, and is declining rapidly, Aaron is losing hope on the job front.  I can't be the optimistic one.  I want to be, but it doesn't happen.

That is all.

What has been up

• Last night I fell asleep on the couch at 8:30. Aaron told me to go to bed at 10.  I slept straight til 8am, when the alarm went off; then snoozed til 8:30.  12 hours?!  Really?!  Oh, and I'm still tired.
• We worked on a home improvement project yesterday.  Our kitchen doesn't have enough storage, so we've been using an open wood shelf as a pantry.  Yesterday we bought a cabinet from Target.  It was boring white, so I told Aaron, I wanted to paint the doors like Mondrian.  He said ok, but then suggested we use chalkboard paint, and make the doors a message center.  I liked this better.  We also bought an extra shelf from Home Depot, and new pulls, because the ones it comes with are ugly.  I hurt my back helping Aaron move it.  But the first one went together easily, and we liked it, so we went back and bought another.  When Aaron was almost done building it, it fell over, and thus new issues started.  One of the doors folded under, the hinge broke, we had a hard time finding a replacement hinge, blah blah.  It's become a hassle.  But the first cabinet is nearly done.  It needs one more coat of paint.  Yay.
• I did better after my breakdown day.  Sunday was pretty good.  Stake conference was good.  The agoraphobia is still there, which is hard.  But I muddle through.
• The other thing we did yesterday was take Zelda to the vet.  She had been limping, so we'd been not walking here much. Then she started yelping, and wincing.  I was worried it would be an ACL, or torn tendon.  But Dr Bath is pretty sure it's hip arthritis, he said we could do an x-ray is we wanted to be certain, but it keeps our cost lower to skip it (for now, at least).  So she got a pain shot, some antinflamitories, and a laser treatment.  It was under $200, which is very good.  But she has to go back for more lasers, for the next few days/couple weeks.

Not sure why, but things have been extra hard lately.  Today was bad.  I hate it.  It feels like it's getting worse, not better.  Aaron managed to get me out of the house a couple times today and got me to help him with a couple projects.  Mostly, I just was on the couch.  Then, eventually, I started sobbing, so I went to lay down in our room.  After willing myself to get up for over an hour, I did.  And showered, and ate some cereal.

I don't know what it is.  I'm tired of seeming like/being a crazy person.

I can't put it into words.  Especially without it reading back super emo, or stupid.  Plus no one wants to read that.

I sent Aaron off to Stake conference without me.  Last time we went, it was all about the importance of being a parent, and having kids, and dealing with wayward kids.  ...  -_-  I think if I had to hear stuff like that today, well, I wouldn't make it to somewhere private before breaking down.

More of the same

Not too much happening.  I'm looking forward to the upcoming 3 day weekend.

We got our State tax refund, now I'm just waiting on the Fed.

I finally took my car in for repair today.  (After that fender bender in December?)  I'm driving a Corolla in the meantime.  Kind of boring, I was hoping for a tiny car, at least a 2 door.  Oh well.

We haven't been to the temple this year.  I feel like a lameo.  But when Saturday rolls around, I just want to do nothing. Once I'm working the early shift, we'll be able to go during the week sometime.

I'm still tired all the time.  I slept 11 hours both weekend days.  And was still sleepy.  But I did manage to stay for all 3 hour of church on Sunday.

Political blah-blah.

I don't usually like to post political stuff, especially on Facebook.  It just makes for too much contention.

That being said:

Hi, I'm Rachel, I'm Mormon, and I would not vote for Mitt Romney.

I'm one of the few mormon dissenters.  I like his policies from when he was governor, but I guess those were all errors, and he's learned since then.  :eye roll:

Here is where I stand: If you have more money, you should pay more taxes.  (I'll pay more taxes too, but I don't make much money, so it doesn't amount to much).  Social programs, and lots of em'.  More funding for public education (basic, and higher).  More funding for health services.  A more prevalent socialized medical system.  Pro-choice (that being said, I abhor abortion "just because", but I also don't believe I should get to decide for the whole country).  And, in general, more governmental/business regulation.  

Most of the time I vote Democrat, but I have voted Republican before.  I'm open to it in the future, but not for Mitt.  However, I do think Mitt is infinitely better than Newt.