A few interesting things lately:
The women had a 2-hour meeting about pornography at church on Sunday. I was honestly expecting to leave shortly after it started, since it's a waste of time. Surprisingly, I stayed for the whole presentation. Nothing new there. And I was a little disappointed that human trafficking wasn't mentioned. I got nothing out of it, in terms of its actual aims. However, I did get something out of it. There was part where a plan of action was mentioned. (The plan of action to end porn addiction was something like going to 12-step meetings, seeing a counselor, setting boundaries etc). I realized I could use the plan of action as a base for myself with depression. (Since, like addiction, depression also changes the pathways and thought processes). So I made a plan of action for myself. It includes: daily prayer (something I'm not too good at), asking for help when I need it (something else I'm not good at), seeking opportunities to serve/ do good/ help others, keep taking my meds and seeing my counselor and shrink, exercise on a near daily basis, and concentrate on now.
I got a very kind note/letter from a complete stranger. I posted a comment on my friend's facebook (she posted an article about infertility). This woman, who I'm guessing is a relative of my friend, wrote me a very long message. About her experiences with infertility, and how she overcame her struggles/depression surrounding it. It was really nice, and very useful.
I've been catching up on my scripture reading. At the beginning of the year, I found a plan online to read all the LDS standard works in a year (The Old and New Testament, The Book of Mormon, The Doctrine and Covenants, and the Pearl of Great Price), roughly 2000 pages of scripture. For about 2 months I was right on track. Then I fell over a month behind. When I started up again, I wasn't sure I'd be able to catch up, since I was at least 150 pages behind. But, due to some long reading sessions, and diligence, I'm almost caught up. It's April 30th, and I'm on April 24th for the Bible and April 17th for the Book of Mormon. So I'm getting closer. I'm hoping to be completely caught up by the end of the week. And then stay of track (of course).
On Sunday I met with my bishop. I needed to talk to him about my disdain for ladies Sunday school, and the fee for my counseling. Since the counseling is done through some arm of the church, there is assistance in paying for it, if you can't afford it. When I talked to him originally, the fee was $90. I said I thought I could pay $50 a session. Then I realized I'd be going weekly, and wasn't sure I could afford the fees. So I talked to him, and he said my father-in-law offered to pay for it. :Quelle surprise!: He knows we're having money issues (as in we're running out, quickly), but we didn't ask for him to pay it. I'd really only mentioned it in passing. So that was a nice surprise. I didn't get much help on my ladies Sunday school issue. But I didn't expect too much advice on that.
The bit of bad news is that I'm still flaring up with the Crohns. So Humira is likely in my future.
I'm actually feeling a little hopeful. Which hasn't happened in quite a while.
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