Breakdown

Today was awful.

Everything started out normally.  I was finally feeling over my cold.  The shower that I wasn't attending was happening today, and I'd planned to skype in through my sister and say hi, and thanks to everyone.  We even practiced last night, to make sure we knew how to do it.

Anyway, Aaron and I watched a movie, and then got ready for church.  I printed out my lesson, and all that was ready.  We were a couple minutes late, so we sat in the back.  Right after sacrament, I started feeling weird.  Too hot, dizzy.  So I went to the bathroom, which helped a little.  I thought I might pass out.  I went out to the car, to lay down and put my feet up.  On the way out to the car, I started crying.  And then I couldn't stop.  I was sobbing for over an hour.  Maybe an hour and a half.  I have no idea why, and I couldn't stop.  I didn't teach my lesson.  I didn't skype into the shower.  All I did was cry and sob.  It kind of felt like a panic attack, but I can't say for sure.  Aaron took care of me, despite my being a burden.  I think he was upset at me first (he had to tell someone at church that I wasn't coming back, and text my sister and such).  But then he made me put my jammies on, and lay down to watch tv.  He made lunch, then I fell asleep for 2 or 3 hours.  On the couch.  With two dogs.  (Somehow I managed to sleep with Zelda at my feet, and Yoie at my side).

Now I just feel embarrassed and stupid.  And my eyes feel really puffy, even though I think they look ok.

And I have Julius laying under my laptop, which is odd.

Another catch up...

The great escape:
Last Sunday Julius made a break for it.  He's become a door darter.  When Aaron was letting the dogs back in, Juli slipped out.  We chased him around (think something out of Benny Hill), until he leapt over a fence and disappeared.  We called for him, put food out, I walked around the block looking for him.  And I cried and cried.  I know cats are good at coming back, but the fact that we got him from a shelter gave me pause.  Maybe he wasn't good at finding his way back?  We kept watching for him.  Then around 5 (two hours later) I saw him sauntering across the yard.  I yelled to Aaron and he went out to lure the cat.  The neighbour dog, Guinness, barked, and Juli took off again.  Aaron yell at me to go around to the front.  So I dashed out there, and Aaron had Julius cornered under the truck.  I told him to grab him by any means, so he hooked the collar.  I crawled around and got a good hold on his scruff and pulled him out.  Then I couldn't stand up, because I'm too pregnant to stand up while holding a cat.
Later in the week, Aaron's folks accidentally let him out too.  But they managed to chase him back into the house.
Illness:
On Wednesday, I wasn't feeling well, and ended up only working a half day.  I had sore throat and some kind of head cold.  Plus I had the feeling I was getting a UTI too.  Not my normal "Holy God! this is the most painful pee ever!" UTI, but the less common "I need to always pee" UTI.  I emailed my ObGYN, and she called in some antibiotics for me, and asked me to go to the lab for a urine culture too.  I left work after working four hours, and drove South to Kaiser.  By the time I got there I needed to pee really bad.  I was glad there was no line at the lab (since there often is).  Then I went down to the pharmacy, which was full of sick, screaming children.  And my Rx wasn't ready, so I had to wait.
The UTI is feeling better.  And after 2 more days off work, I'm finally starting to get over this cold/sinus thing.  I'm draining a little, and my throat is ok.  But I'm still tired. I was going to try to walk today, but a short trip to the grocery store wore me out.
On being alone:
Another reason I'm worn out, is because Aaron's been gone more of the week.  I have no clue how single moms, or Army moms do it.  I do not function well on my own.  He was gone Monday morning through Wednesday afternoon.  Then he had a long meeting on Thursday night.  And now he has a short camp out  tonight into tomorrow.  Bleh.  It's hard for me to take care of four animals, and my sick self.  And try to keep the house in somewhat clean shape.  Even when I'm not sick, I'm tired pretty easily.
Pregnancy:
I'm 31 weeks today.  That means in a couple of days, I'll be 8 months pregnant.  Holy Moly!  That's kind of scary.  Mojo's room isn't ready.  We don't have a car seat or crib (we do have a borrowed bassinet and lots of cloth diapers).  And I really need to get the insurance stuff straightened out.  Ugh, I'll be glad once I have that done.
I've been having a lot of indigestion lately.  Bleh, I hate that.  But I'm still sleeping well, except for waking up to pee.  I can still get comfortable.
Mojo is still dancing around a lot.  I love it.  We're still reading to him nightly.  Aaron was kind of joking around saying we were going to confuse him by reading him The Hobbit one night and Dr Seuss the next.
My baby shower is next week!  Actually, my first one is on Sunday in Virginia.  My relatives are having one for me, even though I can't go, which is really nice.  Then the shower that Sophie is throwing me is next Saturday.  And that means my marmie will be here on Wednesday night!!!  Eee!  And I'm getting an updo done before my shower so I look pretty, since I'm sure there will be lots of pictures.  And I'm excited to see people and eat and have presents.
Marmie:
I'm trying to get the house ready for Marmie's visit.  The guest room is almost ready, it needs a little more cleaning, and some fresh linens.  Aaron is hopefully going to get Mojo's room painted on Sunday and Monday.I'm not sure what she'll do while she's here, since I'm still working when she's here.  I think Sophie wants some help with shower stuff.
It'll be better once I'm on leave and then she'll be back.  Then I can hang with her.

Just the hits

Pregnancy

• Bending is getting really hard.  Sometimes I have to walk the dogs by myself, which is hard because they pull a lot.  But harder because I really have to bend to pick up after them.  Mojo is still kicking around a lot.  My bladder has shrunk.  I can feel like I'm bursting, and I get to the bathroom, and just an average amount of pee comes out.  Plus it's really fun when he uses my bladder as a trampoline.

Insurance

• Related to pregnancy: I'm trying to get all the insurance stuff sorted out.  It's a little overwhelming, which is saying something, since insurance is what I do.  I know I want to stay with Kaiser.  And I know I was Mojo to be with Kaiser at least through year 1, if not beyond.  But it's really difficult because all the plans are based on income, and I have no clue whether (or how much) I'll be going back to work.  The other issue to when (or if) to switch off my work plan and onto either an individual plan (or Covered CA plan).  I tried to call Covered CA, but their phones are too busy, so I filled out the online form, hopefully they'll call back soon.  I'm going to call Kaiser in the next couple of days and see what info I can get from them.

Fitness

• I've been using my Fitbit.  I try to get to 10000 steps most days.  I don't always make it, but I try.  I'm also watching what I eat.  Hopefully I won't gain too much weight before the next appointment.  The Fitbit also monitors my sleep, which has been not great.  I do ok on the weekends, but during the week, I usually get 6hrs 15 min.  My lunch walks are getting more difficult.  I'm starting to get achy, and I still have sciatica off and on.  I'm not meant to weigh 190-some pounds.  

Play

• We  saw The Book of Mormon in San Francisco on Tuesday.  It was so good, and we had a lot of fun.  We don't really go out and do stuff much, and it'll be even less in a couple of months.  It was a little last hurrah.  I had previously thought about a babymoon, but I don't think it's going to happen.

Pregnancy, Yoie, Cleaning...

I'm still feeling pretty well, physically.  I'm still sleeping pretty well.  I'm peeing a lot, more during the day than at night.  Baby is kicking a lot, it's neat to watch my belly thump around.  My mood has been getting a lot worse in the last couple weeks.  I sent an email to my shrink tonight, to keep him in the loop and see if he has any suggestions.  I feel bad for Aaron, I know it's been really hard on him to deal with me. I've had a couple crying/sobbing jags in the last week. In the last couple days, my sciatica is really starting to bother me.  I think I need to start doing more yoga, or stretches.  My shower is in 3 weeks!  Yay!

Aaron Yoie back to the vet a couple days ago.  She had high levels of protein in her blood, and some crystals in her urine.  (My FiL likes to feed her cat treats, so that has to stop).  The vet did x-rays to make sure there were no kidney stones.  Fortunately, there weren't, because then she'd need surgery.  She has special food to eat for the next three weeks, and finish her amox, then she should be good.  She seem like she's feeling better.  More like her old self.

I had a huge list of chores that I wanted to get done this weekend.  I actually did pretty well, all the big still got done.  We got the Christmas stuff put away, cleaned out the fridge, went grocery shopping, did laundry, swept, put miscellaneous stuff away, and Aaron did major cleaning in the bathrooms.  Plus I got most of the junk put away from the guest room, to get it ready for my mom's visit.  We need to get Mojo's room more ready. Lots to do in there.

We did a mini date night tonight.  We went to Chipotle for dinner, then across the street to Yogurtland for dessert.  Then we put gas in the car, and ran to Target for a couple things.