On Potty Training, and Worth

Today is day 3 off potty training.  Day 1 was awful.  Mostly he got to the potty, but there were some accidents, of course.  The best thing about day 1 was that he pooped in his potty without any prompting.  I'd read about several different methods and went with a "Potty Training in 3 Days" one.

The one I was going to use is very strict.  You throw all the diapers away on day one.  (We use cloth, so I didn't do that).  You put the kid in underwear and only have their potty in the bathroom.  Then you say "Tell mommy when you have to go potty" about every 10 seconds.  When you see they start to pee, you whisk them off to finish on the potty.  You stay by their side EVERY SECOND.  Then praise them all the time.  At nap you tell them to call for you when they need to pee.  Then for night time, you stop liquids 3 hours before bed time.  Then wake them after they've been asleep for an hour, and once again in the middle of the night.

So I started with that one, but I modified it.  I have two potties, one in the living room, and another nearby.  And I started him naked.  He mostly got to the potty.  But rushing him there once he's started was not an option, as the flood gates opened.  Bertram is a very independent child, he likes playing by himself, and wasn't happy that I was glued to his side, asking him to tell me when he needed to go.  He also wanted to dump the pee in the toilet every time.  But he got a little too excited some times, and threw it all over the place.  Nap time was non-existent.  He called me into his room at least 5 times, he did pee a few of those times.  But in the end, didn't nap, and wet the bed.  After "nap time" I put him in underwear.  That was a huge failure.  I think he equates underwear to diapers, so he peed in them constantly, which was a much bigger mess.  I had already decided after this first day that this plan was not going to work for us.  The thought of waking Bertie up AN HOUR after he fell asleep would be awful, because he's not likely to go back to sleep, and he would be in a foul mood (same for waking him in the middle of the night).  I put him in a diaper for bed.
Day 2 was much better.  He made it to the potty all but one time.  He was start to dribble pee, and tell me, then I'd tell him to run to the potty and finish, which he did.  He stayed dry in a pair of underwear for an hour or so.  Day 2 was 80% better than day one.
Today is day 3.  No pee accidents so far.  He's pooped a few times (I think because he didn't sit long enough).  Two times, he was grabbing at his bum, and I could see the poop had already started.  So he made it in time.  One time he was standing in the chair at the table, and just pooped.  I scooped him up and set him on his potty and told him to wait while I cleaned.  While he was sitting he pooped a little more.  But he did a 45 minute visit to his grandparents without incident.
I told Aaron maybe once he has a decent handle on it, then maybe we can try the 3 day blitz.  But at this point, we will likely have to take him to church in a diaper.

Today is day 75 (out of 90) of the Bikini Body Mommy Challenge.  I was feeling a little disappointed.  My weight has not changed much and my measurements are relatively stagnant too. That gets me down, of course, because it feel like a lot of work going unrewarded.  Which isn't true, of course.  I am getting stronger, and the numbers on my fit test show it.  So I think about my body.  I though I was fat at 160 before I got pregnant (as the weight I used to sit at was around 143).  But here I am, 3 years after conception and still at 180, a size 14 (when I used to be a 10).  Then I think about my worth.  Am I worth any less at 180 lbs?  Am I a worse mother, wife, sister, Christian, or daughter? Is there anything I can't do now, that I could do 40 lbs lighter?  (Aside from wearing pre-pregnancy clothes?)  No.  My body conceived a child (something I wasn't sure it could do).  My body kept that baby safe, and healthy as he grew.  By body nourished that little boy for 18 months, and he thrived.  So, weight and sizes are numbers, but there are better things to be concerned with.