That's how I feel lately. Depression has come back, big time. I have no motivation to do anything, aside from sit on the couch, or go to bed. I don't want to clean, shower, cook, go out, anything. Yesterday I forced myself to go shopping with some free time I had (and GCs and coupons). I found some cute things, and did ok once I got out. But not great, everything just felt... off. Then I had to take the dogs for a walk, which I also didn't want to do. I've been putting it off for days, or making Aaron go alone. Once I was out with them, i got really agoraphobic. I just had to get home, and couldn't get there quick enough. This continued and morphed into an anxiety attack. One that persisted through 10mg of Ambien.
I had another anxiety/agoraphobia incident at church today. But I made myself stay, because I know by giving in, it would only make things worse.
I emailed my shrink to see about swapping my meds around, and hoping that might help. I can't really have these issues right now. I need to work, I need to be out of the house, and functional.
Sorry you're going through a rough patch... that's tough, I know all too well.
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so sorry Rachel. Having gone through depression, know you are not alone. I really hope you can get your meds worked out soon.
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