I always told myself that if I ever got pregnant (back when I thought I couldn't), that I wouldn't complain. That I would be grateful for all the crappy symptoms that come along with pregnancy. But what did I know?
I'm 23 weeks, and feeling pretty crummy already. My back hurts, my allergies are awful, every time I get up and down I groan like I'm 80. I have no energy and killer indigestion. And I'm having weird cramps, like in the ovary area.
Aside from all this, I'm worried about having another premie. First babies are supposed to come late, Bertie was born at 36+5. I've been looking up viability statistics. Stupid anxiety.
I've gained a little more weight, which I know is going to happen, but I'm really tried to keep it in control. I do need to do a better job of keeping track of what I eat. It would also be good if I exercised, but that doesn't happen much.
But I can still touch my toes. So that's cool.
Thursday, March 30, 2017
Thursday, March 9, 2017
Catching up
Bertie had a good birthday. He was really excited to blow out the candles.
It was wonderful to have my mom here. I wish I could see her more often. And Bertie just started warming up to her when she left. :-/
I feel like I look very round, all of a sudden. Also, I didn't recognize my breasts today. Do these changes happen overnight? I've gained about 6 lbs. I'm almost 21 weeks. I'm ready to start feeling her moving more. I get a few flutters, occasional hiccups, and sometimes I can feel her roll. But nothing really definitive yet. We got the results of the genetic screening in the mail today. Everything is perfect.
I've been trying to get a lot of stuff done before I'm too big to do it. I cleaned out the garage yesterday. I put 4 dining room chairs, a cat tree and a computer chair. (The cat tree, and the dining chairs were things we previously picked up from the curb). The cat didn't care for the tree. And I was going to refinish the chairs, but it had been 2 years, and they were untouched, so they had to go. All three items were gone by this afternoon! Woot. Today I mowed both lawns, and picked up all the dog poop. Bertie helped me throw some grass seeds on the lawns. I want to clear out some stuff from the middle room, do weeding in the flower beds and back yard, power wash the patio and front walk.
We've been trying to figure out rooming situations for when baby arrives. We may possibly try to put little girl in with Bertie (once she sleeps through the night). We may put her and keep her in the middle room (the half bedroom (you have to walk through it to get to the master)). The issue is that I would still like a space for my mom to sleep when she comes to visit. One solution is a roll away bed. It wouldn't be too expensive, and she can either room with Bertie or baby. We have an extra full bed, which we may give to Bertie (Since he needs to vacate the crib before baby). (I don't want to wait too much longer, since I don't want him to feel replaced). Another solution is a bunk bed. My dad has a bunk bed (my old bed, actually) that we could put in Bertram's room. Then my mom can sleep in there when she visits (or we can put both kids in there). Another idea is a fold out couch. The issue with that is Zelda. She always hangs out on the couch, and I don't want the guest bed to smell like dog. My dad also has a twin bed we could take. Maybe we could but the twin in the baby's room. We have a lot of options, but we haven't decided anything. I just want to get it squared away, I don't like being in limbo.
I need to do Bertram's interview, now that he's three.
I can't think of much else at the moment.
It was wonderful to have my mom here. I wish I could see her more often. And Bertie just started warming up to her when she left. :-/
I feel like I look very round, all of a sudden. Also, I didn't recognize my breasts today. Do these changes happen overnight? I've gained about 6 lbs. I'm almost 21 weeks. I'm ready to start feeling her moving more. I get a few flutters, occasional hiccups, and sometimes I can feel her roll. But nothing really definitive yet. We got the results of the genetic screening in the mail today. Everything is perfect.
I've been trying to get a lot of stuff done before I'm too big to do it. I cleaned out the garage yesterday. I put 4 dining room chairs, a cat tree and a computer chair. (The cat tree, and the dining chairs were things we previously picked up from the curb). The cat didn't care for the tree. And I was going to refinish the chairs, but it had been 2 years, and they were untouched, so they had to go. All three items were gone by this afternoon! Woot. Today I mowed both lawns, and picked up all the dog poop. Bertie helped me throw some grass seeds on the lawns. I want to clear out some stuff from the middle room, do weeding in the flower beds and back yard, power wash the patio and front walk.
We've been trying to figure out rooming situations for when baby arrives. We may possibly try to put little girl in with Bertie (once she sleeps through the night). We may put her and keep her in the middle room (the half bedroom (you have to walk through it to get to the master)). The issue is that I would still like a space for my mom to sleep when she comes to visit. One solution is a roll away bed. It wouldn't be too expensive, and she can either room with Bertie or baby. We have an extra full bed, which we may give to Bertie (Since he needs to vacate the crib before baby). (I don't want to wait too much longer, since I don't want him to feel replaced). Another solution is a bunk bed. My dad has a bunk bed (my old bed, actually) that we could put in Bertram's room. Then my mom can sleep in there when she visits (or we can put both kids in there). Another idea is a fold out couch. The issue with that is Zelda. She always hangs out on the couch, and I don't want the guest bed to smell like dog. My dad also has a twin bed we could take. Maybe we could but the twin in the baby's room. We have a lot of options, but we haven't decided anything. I just want to get it squared away, I don't like being in limbo.
I need to do Bertram's interview, now that he's three.
I can't think of much else at the moment.
Monday, February 20, 2017
5 Hours in the ER (and some TMI)
Yesterday, I had some weird mucus-y bloody discharge. I had had some pink spotting but this was red, red. I called the advice line. Then had a phone appointment with an OB. She said if I wanted to wait til Tuesday, that would likely be ok. If I wanted to go to the ER that was ok too. (She said everything sounded fine, but since she couldn't examine me, she couldn't be sure). I knew I needed the piece of mind, or I'd drive myself crazy.
My mom came with me, so Aaron could stay with Bertram. I checked in around 3pm. Around 3:45 I had an ultrasound (which I didn't get to see, boo). Around 4 I had a blood draw, and they said no eating or drinking til I left. The blood work was going to take two hours, then I could have a pelvic and be done.
So we waited and waited. And a smelly homeless guy sat near us, so we had to move. Mom finished her book. I had played on my phone for too long.
At 7, I went and talked to the nurse to see if my blood work was back. She said it was, but they needed a room in the back to do the pelvic. I told her they could do it in the waiting room, because I wanted to just be done. She said there were four people ahead of me. So we waited more. But then she came out 10 minutes later and said they could see me in one of the front rooms. (The reason they didn't want to do it there was because there was no door (just a curtain) and the bed was a small gurney, without stirrups). They had me prop up on a bedpan, since the bed wasn't made for pelvic exams. It was fairly uncomfortable, the dr had to bend the speculum all around to get a proper view of my cervix. He said it looked closed, the blood work was good, and the ultrasound was good. He said to follow up with my OB on Tuesday.
We left a little before 8. It was a long afternoon. But the ER was pretty busy most of the time we were there. We went to Jack in the Box because we were both starving.
I have a follow up with my OB tomorrow afternoon. I think I see her like every week. This pregnancy has been a bit rough.
My mom came with me, so Aaron could stay with Bertram. I checked in around 3pm. Around 3:45 I had an ultrasound (which I didn't get to see, boo). Around 4 I had a blood draw, and they said no eating or drinking til I left. The blood work was going to take two hours, then I could have a pelvic and be done.
So we waited and waited. And a smelly homeless guy sat near us, so we had to move. Mom finished her book. I had played on my phone for too long.
At 7, I went and talked to the nurse to see if my blood work was back. She said it was, but they needed a room in the back to do the pelvic. I told her they could do it in the waiting room, because I wanted to just be done. She said there were four people ahead of me. So we waited more. But then she came out 10 minutes later and said they could see me in one of the front rooms. (The reason they didn't want to do it there was because there was no door (just a curtain) and the bed was a small gurney, without stirrups). They had me prop up on a bedpan, since the bed wasn't made for pelvic exams. It was fairly uncomfortable, the dr had to bend the speculum all around to get a proper view of my cervix. He said it looked closed, the blood work was good, and the ultrasound was good. He said to follow up with my OB on Tuesday.
We left a little before 8. It was a long afternoon. But the ER was pretty busy most of the time we were there. We went to Jack in the Box because we were both starving.
I have a follow up with my OB tomorrow afternoon. I think I see her like every week. This pregnancy has been a bit rough.
Saturday, February 11, 2017
Monday, February 6, 2017
Something different
(If we're friends on Facebook, please don't mention this on there yet.)
In case you haven't guessed, I'm pregnant. Yay! I'm 16 weeks. I haven't announced it online yet because there were some issues early on. I had some spotting, and cramping. Well, I still have sporadic spotting and cramping. But I went to see my OB again today (I've been going in a lot, because I've been really nervous this time around), and she said unless it's constant, or heavy red bleeding (as opposed to the pink I've been having) it's normal.
So back to the beginning. I knew I was pregnant about as early as one could know.
In case you haven't guessed, I'm pregnant. Yay! I'm 16 weeks. I haven't announced it online yet because there were some issues early on. I had some spotting, and cramping. Well, I still have sporadic spotting and cramping. But I went to see my OB again today (I've been going in a lot, because I've been really nervous this time around), and she said unless it's constant, or heavy red bleeding (as opposed to the pink I've been having) it's normal.
So back to the beginning. I knew I was pregnant about as early as one could know.
This is the very first test I took. You can only see the pink line if you squint, a lot.
And like when I was pregnant with Bertie, I had a short, light "period". I went to the doctor fairly early on, to make sure I was actually pregnant.
This is the second ultrasound picture. I can't find the first one on the computer.
I took more pregnancy tests than necessary.
The cramping and spotting early on was scary, and ... well, just scary. But I was also really sick from the very beginning. Way sicker than I was with Bertie, and so exhausted. That was the real reason I quit working at Amazon. Between the spotting, being sick, and being super tired, it didn't work anymore. It's too bad, because I enjoyed the job, and the extra cash, but health and wellness first.
My ornament this year. It says "baby" on the snowman's tummy.
That was about 12 weeks along.
I just put my non-maternity pants away last week. When I was pregnant with Bertram, I gained 20 lbs in the first trimester. This time I gained about 5. But I was about 165 at the start of the last pregnancy, and I was 188 at the start of this one. So I am obese, which means I really need to keep the weight gain to a minimum. Last week I was a dietitian, and made a plan that gives me enough calories and enough of the different kinds of foods. Fingers crossed. Since I'm still exhausted all the time, exercise hasn't been happening much.
I'm fairly certain the baby is a girl. Based on the heart rate, how sick I was, and that I'm carrying high; I'm fairly sure the baby is a girl. I will be shocked if it's a boy, actually. We'll find out at the end of the month, and then we'll announce it to the facebook universe.
We've been thinking about Bronwyn for her name. My only hesitation is having both kids with the same first initial.
I'm actually really nervous to have a girl. The world is not a great place for girls right now. And I worry that I don't have what it takes to raise a strong, feminist girl.
I've been trying to get the house in order a bit. We're debating between having Bertram and new baby share a room. If it's a boy it's a no brainer. But if it's a girl, we may have them share for a few years, then separate them. We have 3 bedrooms in the house, so we lose our guest room if they each have their own rooms. Anyway, that's something we'll work on later.
Saturday, January 21, 2017
This and That.
I don't feel like I have too much to say, just the usual things.
It's been raining here for what feels like an eternity. It's actually as close to storming as we get. (I've lived here my whole life (minus a couple years) and I can count the number of times we've had thunder and lightning on one hand. But we have high wind warnings all night. And one of our wind chimes just blew down and shattered. :( The weather is not helping my depression, and is limiting the time we spend outside.
Aside from the weather, everyone is, or has been sick. Aaron's 92 year old grandma got the flu, which is scary, because she's 92 (though, generally in good health). As far as I know she had a flu shot, but got it anyway. So she had a round of Tamaflu, and is on the mend. But Aaron's folks are both sick. Aaron was sick for most of last week. I've been pretty healthy (knock on wood), just little things. Bertie has been a little sick, but just with little things too.
My dad is remodeling his bathroom. It is original to the house, and thus is very 70's. (Who puts carpet in a bathroom?) New and bigger shower, new vanities and sinks, new floor, and closet remodel. I helped him choose stone and tile today. He'll likely redo his kitchen within the next year. He found a contractor he likes, so let the work begin! I should take some before and after pictures.
Bertie has been really good the last few days. He had a few poo accidents after my last post, but overall it doing really well. We've been colouring a lot, as a family, after dinner. I really enjoy that, I think we all do. It makes me a happy mommy when he is a good listener, and isn't whiny. Livin' the dream! Also, when he naps, he and I nap together in my bed. He's getting so big, but he's still my baby. (I guess you always feel that way as a parent).
I started doing Bikini Body Mommy this week. I only got to it four times. But it's something.
One of our gnomes just blew over and broke. Stupid wind!
It's been raining here for what feels like an eternity. It's actually as close to storming as we get. (I've lived here my whole life (minus a couple years) and I can count the number of times we've had thunder and lightning on one hand. But we have high wind warnings all night. And one of our wind chimes just blew down and shattered. :( The weather is not helping my depression, and is limiting the time we spend outside.
Aside from the weather, everyone is, or has been sick. Aaron's 92 year old grandma got the flu, which is scary, because she's 92 (though, generally in good health). As far as I know she had a flu shot, but got it anyway. So she had a round of Tamaflu, and is on the mend. But Aaron's folks are both sick. Aaron was sick for most of last week. I've been pretty healthy (knock on wood), just little things. Bertie has been a little sick, but just with little things too.
My dad is remodeling his bathroom. It is original to the house, and thus is very 70's. (Who puts carpet in a bathroom?) New and bigger shower, new vanities and sinks, new floor, and closet remodel. I helped him choose stone and tile today. He'll likely redo his kitchen within the next year. He found a contractor he likes, so let the work begin! I should take some before and after pictures.
Bertie has been really good the last few days. He had a few poo accidents after my last post, but overall it doing really well. We've been colouring a lot, as a family, after dinner. I really enjoy that, I think we all do. It makes me a happy mommy when he is a good listener, and isn't whiny. Livin' the dream! Also, when he naps, he and I nap together in my bed. He's getting so big, but he's still my baby. (I guess you always feel that way as a parent).
I started doing Bikini Body Mommy this week. I only got to it four times. But it's something.
One of our gnomes just blew over and broke. Stupid wind!
Monday, January 9, 2017
Quick update
I'll just make a list, because I'm lazy.
- I had a grouchy day. Just a lot of little things, and Bertram being a bad listener. Also, he had a week of perfect potty use, and then pooped in his pants today. Ugh. We are still making progress, it's just disappointing. I do think it's cute, when I gush at him, and tell him I'm so proud of him. Then he says I'm proud of you too Mommy. That kid.
- He's really gotten into singing lately. He especially likes the ABCs and the Finger Family song.
- It has been raining for several days, and we still have several more. It's making me a little stir crazy. I don't think we do a lot of outdoor stuff (I really should do more), but it just makes everything harder. It's cold, and dreary. It's difficult to get in and out of the car quickly, and if we have to park far away, we'll get wet. Besides that, the rain is really playing up my depression; which also makes it hard to leave the house, or do anything.
- I started rereading Animal Farm. I want to (re)read more classics. I'm going to do 1984, Brave New World, and Fahrenheit 451 next. Then I'll see where I go from there. Hopefully I keep the momentum. I'm not sure if it is motherhood, or technology that is ruining books for me. I guess it could be both.
- I made some progress at cleaning the house today. I need to finish up the laundry, mop and clean the bathroom.
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